We arose bright and early this morning. I had a dentist appt and it takes a good hour to get to my dentist. This was the second time I rescheduled this one, so I had to make it. Had to have impressions made of my upper teeth for a guard to protect my teeth since I've been grinding the heck out of them. I never had this problem until all this crap with Rob started back up again. I not only grind my teeth in the middle of the night, but I catch myself doing it during the day too. My psychiatrist told me that for some reason when i'm stressed out, all of my stress settles into my neck and mouth area..thus the inability to swallow, the grinding of my teeth, and the feeling like i'm being strangled at times. I saw my hypnotist monday and he did such a good job...I was swallowing with ease all day Monday and all day tuesday, this is the longest amount of time i've went since last oct with being able to swallow like a normal person. Unfortunately I lost it today, after the dentist appt. I get stressed out as it is, just going to that mans office. Even if it's for a checkup i can feel my blood pressure rise the minute I hear his feet coming down the hall. I used to take a xanax or two before any of my dentist appts! I should have taken one before this one. It took the girl three times to get the impression made right. OMG....I was in a state of panic the first time and the second two were not much better!~having all that goop smeared all over your teeth and into the roof of your mouth...i felt like i was going to choke. When after her third attempt,and she said "you're going to want to kill me"...I  had had enough!! I told her I was not going to do it again...no way! Thank God doctor brace was okay with the third one she did, because like i said, even if he wasn't okay with it, there was not going to be a fourth attempt! This was enough stress to put me over the edge and back to having to drink from a straw like a gerbil. Dave said i remind him of a gerble (which spelling is right of that word) because i take about seven or eight sips and then let them slide back out of my mouth, before getting up the courage to let one go down my throat! It's embarrassing and frustrating, but hey....at least i'm swallowing! Who cares what i sound or look like? I thank God that I can do it!! Pat is picking Christie and Chloe up now. They'll be here til about ten thirty tonight. I can't wait to see chloe belle! and christie too of course! Not much else going on here today. Friday i go in for a laser. OUCH....they feel like hundreds of bees stinging your face. But i'm too afraid and too poor to afford a full fledged face lift, so this subtle change is as good as it gets for me now! I'll be out of commission for three to five days after it...will have to slather my face in aquafore. oh the things we do for beauty!!