Today we drug our butts out of bed at about ten oclock. We have got to get off this schedule. I hate sleeping my mornings away and if Pat finds a job soon, he's going to have to be up way before ten AM! I started chopping my hair off yesterday....not good, seeing that I do not have a clue as to how to cut hair! But I felt bored, old, fat and ugly. I needed some kind of change and it isn't going to be losing the 12 lbs I've gained as long as I keep on eating the way I have been! I have a sweet tooth so eat a vanialla bun candybar along with a pack of ritz crackers with cheese from the can piled sky high on each one every night! I'm hoping I'll get the incentive to lose what i've gained before we go on our cruise in early november. I have two new bikinis to wear! anyway, back to the hair disaster....I do this all the time and always regret it! I cut off quite a lot....it just about hits my shoulders now. I went to a fantastic sams...what's the world coming to??? to have it framed around my face and I have to say that for a $14 haircut it looks pretty dang good!! I don't see my usual stylist brandi until july. Come sept and i'll have new extensions put in by her...so i'll get my long hair back then! IF pat has a job! No job, no extensions!! He keeps telling me we have to tighten up....which is hard for me to do because he's spoiled me rotten for so many years! He has promised me a new diamond ring when he gets his job (IF he gets a job)!! So i'm pretty excited about that. I LOVE my bling!! bring on the bling, the big hair, and a ton of makeup and i'm a happy old gal! One of these years I will surprise Pat with getting my hair all chopped off. He actually likes short hair...yet i always wear mine long. I did have a very short haircut about 10 years ago...it was called a military cut and was shaved out around the ears. A funky and fun style that i liked for about a week or two, then i wondered what the heck did i do?!! After getting my hair layerd at sams, we went to eat lunch at wasabi. Pretty good japanese food and really good sushi. I got my every day iced caramel machiatto....another lb or two in weight gain!! and then we went to the BX where i picked up a few things while pat was getting a few groceries at the comissary. All in all a good day! and best of all, i've been swallowing liquids and food without any problem today! I think my hynotist really did a good job yesterday. I count him as one of my many blessings in my life. He is amazing at what he does and he's also a baptist pastor so I can get couseling too if i ask about things! But the way he hypnotises me is unbelievable. I get into a trance and leave feeling like i've had a day of rest at a spa! I kid you not, i'd take a session with him over a spa day anytime! For anyone who doubts hynosis....I'm telling you that from my own experience, it works! My goal is to get off my meds and just continue on with the hypnosis. My psychiatrist is not going to be happy to find out i have not listened to him when he told me to double my prozac. I feel wiped out as it is...why would i want to take more? I want off this stuff..it and the lorezepam. I do not like taking meds like these. I see him next week. This week is my dentist appt (tomorrow) and a laser on my face friday...OUCH!! Pat put back the money a long time ago for me to get this done...i've had it before and it hurts like hell...feels like hundreds of bees stinging your face. Then you leave covered in a vaseline like goop which has to stay on your face for three days until the redness, swelling and scabs start to go away. A lot to go thru for a subtle change, but it's all i can afford and all i have the courage for right now! Okay, i'm out of here...Dave and Pat are playing a video game in here. I'm in the man cave...and dave is not too happy with the sound of the keys on the keyboard!